June 2, 2012
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Still alive
I guess after my post last night I owe it to you all to let you know I’m still alive.
I didn’t do anything too stupid.
I did brake this little glass, egg shaped, candy bowl from Easter by slamming it into a metal weight. It shattered everywhere and I have multiple cuts on my hands. It also took a big chunk out if my thumb. I made a mess and bled all over the blankets, my jeans, the bed, and then once I text Trey to come upstairs, I bled on the floors walking to the bathroom.
It’s nothing too serious. I’ll live. The salt water at the beach is going to be a bitch though.
After that I tried to be smarter. I felt really sad, hurt, and I was tired of living; so I made sure that I went down stairs where I would at least be around Trey, his friend, and his family. It’s not like I really interacted with them much; I just thought it was better than being in a room upstairs, with only my thoughts to keep me company.
Today will be better. Trey and I have to pack for the trip tomorrow.
Sorry if I worried you all. I saw that I had several comments on my previous post, so I’m going to go read them now. I just wanted to let you know I was alive, and hadn’t done anything too stupid.
Comments (10)
((super big ridiculous hugs))
*huge hugs* I love you. Be safe today and have fun!
You live on the ocean and you wanted to kill youself??? Being near the ocean would make me want to live for centuries.
Have a good day:) love yourself more !
Yay! I’m glad you are still on this earth!!! Hope you have some fun at the beach! Wish I could go. =)
I’m so glad you are okay.
Have fun
Hey, I haven’t been on Xanga for a while and when I signed on today and saw your last post, I was really worried girly. I’m sorry that you are hurting so much right now, but I’m glad you’re still alive. Sending my love <3
It seems that emotionally/mentally you are in a pretty bad place lately, and I really hope things either start getting better or you can get some help. You have been through so much already, you are a strong girl, just remember you have lots of people that care even if you haven’t met a lot of them.
Have a safe trip!
Enjoy your trip in TX. It’s very hot today but a storm is coming to north TX this week. I am sure it’s just hotter and humid in south TX. Enjoy the beach weather. Remember sunscreen.