June 2, 2013
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Crying again.. damnit.
I’ve been doing really well the last couple of days.
Tuesday, I cried a bunch.Wednesday, once or twice. (One time was when he texted me so I’d have his German phone number, but i can’t text it much because it’s expensive.)Thursday I did really well and same thing on Friday.I’m trying to keep busy and distracted and I’m been doing well with that.Yesterday I got up and messed on computer til I had to go to work, then I went to krogers with Allie, got some beers, came back home and had one and showed her minecraft. After she left (which was 2 hours after her one beer), I went up to BAB (Build-A-Bear) and hung out there til they closed, and then I went to cajun’s and hung out with Derrick and road around on all the van runs with him. He was done shuttling people around a little after 1am, so I came back here (home), and finished the beer Allie home opened (would have been her second) but after a few sips she decided she didn’t want it anymore. Then I went to bed.This morning I went to the nursery and got a facebook message/text from Trey around 11:30am! He’d sent a message about getting his tablet working and trying to skype me tomorrow (now today) around 3am last night and now I’d gotten another message! He messaged me for about 30 minutes then disappeared (for dinner apparently) and a little after 1pm he started messaging me again. I got home and saw he was on skype, so at 2pm I called him. My mic didn’t seem to be working so he talked and i typed.After 30 minutes the video quality got really bad because his battery was about to die so we had to say our goodbyes and he’s going to try to get a converter so he can charge his tablet up again.When I got his message around 11:30 I felt like crying a little but I tried not to and on skype I was holding back tears a few times. Once he ended the skype call I couldn’t help but crying.I just miss him a lot and I really wish I could have cuddles with him. I saw his face on skype and I was just like, I want a hug.So now I’m sitting here, hugging Lil Sergeant Scriff (camo bear) and wishing it was Trey… and trying to calm down so I can leave my room and maybe distract myself some more.
Comments (2)
It’s a bitch, but this time will give you more strength inside yourself. I know about this sort of thing- it’s been two years now.
Avoid drinking beer, the alcohol is a downer and won’t help your situation. You can never drink a situation away; just a temp. relief, at best.
Continue to do more productive things, that will take your mind away and help someone along the way. For instance, think of ways to help out the people in Moore, OK.