You know what's freakin' awesome about my oldest brother? How the dickhead is so fuckin' selfish and OCD that he has to have all his stuff separate from ours! He literally has his food setting in a chair in the corner of the room locked in containers! He actually has two of these...

One sitting like that and the other one flip over on top of it and he has them locked together with a key and chain. Fucking psycho. That's not even the bad part... well aside from the fact that it's super embarrassing to have someone over the ridiculousness that goes on in my house. The most annoying part is THE FREEZER!

He can't have any of his packaged food touching anyone else's packaged food, thus the whole bottom compartment of the freezer is taken  up by him.

In case you can't read it (sorry, it's kind of small), the top part of the freezer is mine, my Mom's, my Dad's, and Connor's stuff, the middle row is the ice row, and the big section in the bottom is ALL FOR SEAN!!!

Not only is it the biggest section [for one fucking self-righteous person!!!!!!!] it's the coldest!

Meaning, when I went to get an ice cream sandwich a moment ago, which is obviously at the top of the freezer judging by my diagram, it wasn't completely frozen and it was mushy and gross!!

If I'm going to eat an ice cream sandwich I want it to actually be frozen like ice cream is suppose to be!!!

And no I'm not ranting about not getting my ice cream (that would make me sound like a gluttonous brat) I'm pissed because our lives have to revolve around keeping SEAN happy!!! I mean come on! It's not like he's a grown adult (21 to be exact) who lives at home and doesn't have a job, go to school, or have a legitimate excuse as to why he doesn't do either of those! He's just a self righteous, lazy, bum, thinks he's better than everyone else, pathetic excuse for a human being, waste of life, bastard!!!

GAH!

In case you couldn't tell.... I'm quite pissed off right now.

I WISH MY PARENTS WOULD JUST KICK HIM OUT ALREADY! He needs a wake up call.

/rant over.

What did I do this Labor Day Sunday you ask? Well I slept in an extra two hours (I was really needing it! Besides, I never sleep in so it was okay this one time lol), did a section of my algebra homework, oh and I also got to meet my first xangan ever!

Yep, @Sf2slc came to Little Rock and we met up at Purple Cow for lunch.

We ate and had purple vanilla milkshakes and talked a lot... and I do mean a lot. It was about 6:00 when we realized how late it had gotten, keeping in mind we met up at 12:30pm LOL.

I've never gotten the chance to meet someone from xanga in real life, but I have to say it was an awesome experience! Sam is definitely a very sweet and genuine guy. Thanks for a great Sunday!

Oh, and I hope the rest of your trip in Arkansas goes well! Travel safely

I've been seeing a lot of post about how Christians hate gays and they're mean, and I've also seen some post and arguments about how atheist are hateful and mean people. And it goes back and forth, with no end.

Well you know what?

There are some hateful, mean Christians.

There are some hateful, mean Atheist.

There are some hateful, mean Jews.

There are some hateful, mean gays.

There are some hateful, mean African Americans.

There are some hateful, mean Caucasians.

There are some hateful, mean Germans.

There are some hateful, mean Asians.

There are some hateful, mean young people.

There are some hateful, mean Muslims.

There are some hateful, mean heterosexuals.

There are some hateful, mean Catholics.

There are some hateful, mean old people.

And you know what else?

They are the way they are, because that's how they choose to act. Just because someone believes a certain religion or their skin's a certain color or they have a certain heritage does NOT give them an excuse, nor does it mean they are, mean and hateful. If someone acts in either of those ways, it is because of that persons outlook on life and their personality.

Religion, race, sexual preference, age, gender, nor nationality excuses you for your own behavior.

This afternoon I had work. While walking through the kitchen to clock in, one of the guys in there commented, "Have you been back there getting into the mashed potatoes?" Slightly confused, I responded, "No, I don't really like mashed potatoes." I assumed someone had gotten into one of the walk-ins and ate a bunch of them. His next comment cleared up all confusion...

"Oh I see. You've gotten a bit chubbier."

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I replied sheepishly, "Yeah, I've been trying to gain a little." He asked what I'd been eating and I said I didn't know... I'd been trying to get lots of protein. Then he said, "Oh, you must be eatin' a lot of peanut butter."

.....Thanks, actually no, I don't eat peanut butter that often. But thanks for the confidence boost.

I mean seriously, who walks up to someone and says "Hey! I see you've gotten chubby! Way to pack on the pounds!" Like what the fuck?! I'm pretty sure it's impossible for a 5'1 and 1/2" girl to be chubby at ~97 pounds! God forbid I don't weigh the 84 pounds I weighed last winter! Personally, I think that's a good thing!!!

So here's what I have to say to you...

I didn't let his ignorant comment stop me from eating my snack I'd brought with me of pita chips and bean dip, nor will I let it stop me from making lunch plans with a friend tomorrow.

P.S.
Oh... and the best part?

Immediately after updating my facebook status to "just got called chubby... Awesome." my sister text me "Who do I need to kill?"

After texting my Mom "You know what really helps boost your confidence?" (What?) "Getting called chubby upon first arriving at work" and she responded... "That idiot wrong ur closer to normal.   i kick his ass." (Haha, my Mom's technically-challenged)

@UnrevealedTruth_xo commented, "Please tell me who said this so I can hunt them down & kick some sense into them." {Cassandra, thanks girl. I love you!}

@unconventionalbutterfly commented, " Don't let people get you down hun. Just do you and they can go on their marry hateful lives. " {Thanks Trish! You're so right, I just need to focus on being healthy and happy, and screw what the others think }

Brad commented, "Douchebag. Unacceptable"  {Haha! I love Brad}

@freebirdheart commented, "you aren't" {Thank you Rachel, I'll try to remember that, especially in times like I just had. <3}

Patrick commented, "You are perfect just the way you are! Piss on any rat bastard who says different!" {Ahahaha! This is just a little evidence as to why I love Patrick so much! }

@hopethatitglows commented, "Eww, wtf?! Whoever said that is clearly freakin' blind!!" {Thanks sweetie! I love you <3}

And Erika commented, "I can't believe that. Someone wanted to hurt you or they were talking to someone behind you or maybe it is opposite day?"

Oh and my little brother says he'll go slash his tires for me if I want him to. Haha!

It's nice to know my friends have my back

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This morning, for the first time in forever, I made scrambled eggs using two whole eggs.. instead of just egg whites.

What's up? Oh nothing #justbeingnormal

Maybe a few weeks ago I deleted Heather as my friend. I think I might have thought she'd notice and if she mentioned it or sent me a friends request then I'd accept it and let it be. However, she's said nothing or simply hasn't noticed. Either way, I'm figuring she doesn't care.

The last several times we've made plans (which I intiated), she's ended up bailing at the last minute with B.S. excuses.

A few of the times I went to her youth group with her, she basically ignored me and clung to her other friends.

I also have to be the one to text her and she never seems interested in talking to me. Plus she puts her "newest catch" before me which is ridiculous.

So I'm done. I deleted her from my phone just a moment ago.. which is kind of pointless because I have her number memorized backworth and forth. I'll probably always remember it... I have a knack for remembering dates and numbers (unfortunately that doesn't portray itself in history...).

I don't think I would necessarily ignore her if she made an effort to contact me but I'm through trying to initiate it. It's not worth my time.

I guess you could say after seven years, we've grown apart. If she doesn't want to try to keep us together, then I'm not wasting my time either.

I'm starting college and meeting new people. I'm going to be doing new stuff and really moving on with my life. I'm branching out, and I've already made a few new friends.

Time goes on.... people change.

I'm okay with this.

I had a long day at school... I was there from 9am-4:30pm and then I went to print some pictures for lab notes/flashcards... I'll upload those later. And after printing my picture I went by burger king and got a strawberry sundae... apparently they just started selling soft serve there... Score!

It was delicious! Not to mention, I barely had time to eat while I was on campus because I was busy every minute... so it was well deserved haha. After I got home I got to talk with my friend, Patrick. He was a doorman at Cajun's but then moved back up to Virginia at the beginning of the year (boo! :sad) We still talk some though. We spent a while catching up, and by the time we got off the phone an hour had passed... haha wow, it didn't even feel like that long! Now I'm going to go have some dinner... here's a video from last Friday night/Saturday morning that it wouldn't let me post earlier...

"How My Brain Works"

And I'm upset right now... so if anyone calls me stupid for almost crying over this I WILL bite your head off!

P.S. You'll have to turn your volume up... I spoke softer than I realized... sorry.  

I WANT YOUR OPINIONS ON TATTOOS!!!!

PRETTY, PRETTY PLEASE WITH CHERRIES AND WHIP CREAM ON TOP?

IT'D BE MUCH APPRECIATE!

Oh, and if you could also REC this so I can get as much feedback as possible? I don't ask people to rec my stuff that often, so I'd really appreciate this tiny favor.

Oh, and pre-warning... I most likely will timestamp this if I'm not satisfied with the amount of feedback I get the first time

THANKS GUYS!!!!